I think that our twenties are some of the best and most awful years of our lives. For some it is harder then others. More struggles, more confusion, more pain. I have decided to get checked and see about being treated for depression. That is hard for me to admit because I don’t show how much I am struggling to most people. I put on a smile and lie through my teeth about being okay. Its time to face facts and realize that I am not okay. The past year has really been the final straw, too much happened. Hoping they can help me and that I will find myself and be able to wear an honest smile soon.
Some days are really good at making you feel so low and worthless. Sliding down that slippery slope yet again.
Today is not my day. Feeling pretty down and wondering if I have my life heading in the right direction. Am I making choices that will make me happy and keep me happy? I really don’t know and that scares the hell outta me.
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Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and business meetings, but after a while wish they were home in their pajamas. They prefer to devote their social energies to close friends, colleagues, and family. They listen more than they talk, think before they speak, and often feel as if they express themselves better in writing than in conversation. They tend to dislike conflict. Many have a horror of small talk, but enjoy deep discussions.
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I have realized that I don’t know how to be single. I am so used to being in relationships that being single is so foreign to me. The thought of having to go through the dating process seriously gives me anxiety. Plus the fact that I don’t feel like there is a guy out there who will understand me and be good to me. Yeah I know, that is very pessimistic of me but at this point in my life I feel it’s the truth. Being alone is okay sometimes but I do have days where it really bums me out and I feel lonely. Should I of just settled for someone who didn’t understand me? Do most people settle for someone? I really don’t know anymore.
Birthdays make me feel depressed for some reason. Ooh well, hopefully my 24th year will be the best one yet.
Fuck having an ulcer.
