May 2013
12 posts
“Introverts, in contrast, may have strong social skills and enjoy parties and...”
– Susan Cain, Quiet (via inaudiblewords)
I have realized that I don’t know how to be single. I am so used to being in relationships that being single is so foreign to me. The thought of having to go through the dating process seriously gives me anxiety. Plus the fact that I don’t feel like there is a guy out there who will understand me and be good to me. Yeah I know, that is very pessimistic of me but at this point in my...
Reflecting.
As I look back on the last year of my life, some of it is still hard to swallow. I went through two surgeries both with rough recoveries, I moved in with the guy I was dating, we got a house and then engaged, I came to terms in a sense with being assaulted and sought therapy, I finally told my mother about said assault, I broke off my engagement which was one of the hardest decisions I have ever...
Feeling super disappointed tonight.
I really need to find a new therapist soon. My brain won’t shut off and its making me over think things. Starting to loose my balance just a bit. Need to catch myself before I actually fall. I can do this!
April 2013
12 posts
I have only ever truly hated two people in my whole life because hating someone is a waste of energy. The two that I do hate are well deserving of it, but now I just added a third to this list. What a let down you were.
I really need to find tops to wear this summer. I don’t have very many girly tops. I mean i can just wear band shirts and tank tops all summer but i would like to have other options. I just don’t like most the tops in stores right now. They either are really big or mid drifts. I need them to actually fit me without being too tight. Hmmm
Why i wasted so much time on you i don’t know. You called me the crazy one….really. Breaking into my apartment to go through all my stuff to take back a ring, which i asked if you wanted back in Jan and you said no. Now you are talking to your ex whom you said you hated and was fat and gross. You are so not who i thought you were. I am so thankful i broke things off with you! Lesson...
That moment when you realize that the person you once knew so well is actually a complete stranger. Did they put on an act our did you really just nit see them for what they really were. Talk about dissapointing. Life will go on.
March 2013
2 posts
I am in love with Jesse from Pitch Perfect.
February 2013
5 posts
I have made the choice that 2013 is going to be my year. I am going to stick to eating healthier. I know i will have bad days where I break down and give into my cravings, I am only human but I wont allow that to ruin my progress. Each day is a new start, to do things right. I will hike more and all around be more active. I still have to switch my gym memberships. I will try and keep a positive...
January 2013
5 posts
Drifting away.
Sometimes when I look in the mirrior I feel like I don’t know who I am looking at. I am sure I am not the only one who has ever felt this way. Yet lately it seems to be happening more and more. Not sure why or what to do. For awhile I felt great and like I was really starting to find myself. Be the person I want to and know I can be. Lately I feel as though I am slipping through the cracks...
Soetimes life can be rather stupid/frustrating. But if it wasn’t there would be nothing in life worth fighting for. Still trying to get my head on straight.
Gotta keep my chin up.
December 2012
1 post
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November 2012
5 posts
When everything seems to be falling apart it feels really nice to have so much family around me as support. Sometimes I forget how loved I am. Life is not meant to be easy and now I have to make some tough choices to decide what is best for me. Gotta put my big girl pants on and face it head on.
October 2012
37 posts
I am so ready to go to therapy today.
I dream of the day that I will get to start running again. It has been 5 months since my surgery and I feel like I have taken five steps back. Looking back I wish I could go back and not go through with it. The pain in my foot is actually getting worse. There will be another surgery in my near future if I ever hope to run again. I go see my doctor for the last time this Thursday and i need to make...
“I was always an unusual girl. My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing dew north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and wavering as the ocean.”
“I hear the birds on the summer breeze, I drive fast I am alone in the night Been tryin’ hard not to get in trouble, but I I’ve got a war in my mind I just ride Just ride, I just ride, I just ride I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy I’m tired of driving ‘till I see stars in my eyes I look up to hear myself saying, Baby, too much I strive, I just...
